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Pissed off!!! im sooooo pissed off right now!!! CAN STAND IT NO LONGER!!!
At this point, I really feel like making decision B. I want badly to break free from all these s****.

Why must you do this to me all the time? I have feelings too. My patience does have limits also. Time after time u put my patience to test. I simply lost count on the times u tortured me mentally...the rage is building inside and soon will change into hatred. You are becoming excessively ill-tempered of late and making me hate you. Listen here. You are putting me in a very difficult situation. Venting your anger on me is so easy for you,isnt it? Sometimes I wonder if I owed you in previous life. Many times I feel so sorry for myself.

I will remember what you did to me.

22nd birthday

Had been doing report whole day...so sien...want to take some time out to blog now :-P

I had a wonderful birthday this year though I hate year2009. In 2009, I had been through some ordeals. In spite of that, these ordeals have changed me into a tougher person and more positive-minded. Well, you must be wondering what ordeals they are...so I would just mention them generally. Health, friendship problems, laptop, etc....Anyway, I will not look back and complain about what had happened to me. As my father has always said, "Everything has its 2 sides." The choice is in your hand. You decide which side you want to look at. This solves everything. But, then again, it is easier said than done. Whatever it is I treat all these as part and parcels of life. =)

Coming back to my topic, yeah my 22nd birthday was indeed a meaningful and memorable and definitely GREAT one. It is not something big-scale. What counts is the togetherness with family and efforts made by my friends and HIM. On the night of Oct7,2009 my group of friends threw me a surprise by 'cheating' me into thinking that we were going to sing karaoke and had buffet dinner at Greenbox. But, of course, during the journey I sensed something wasn't right. The roads they used were the 'loopholes' I detected. Those roads were definitely not to Balakong. After travelled for almost an hour (due to heavy traffic), we finally reached the destination. The answer was so obvious as we stood in front of the Shabu-Shabu building. So, instead of karaoke, it turned out to be steamboat. Of course, this was not the only 'lie' they told. We did not enter the building instantly. Rather, I was being led to somewhere under the pretext of waiting for the other group to arrive. So , I stupidly walked down the street and chatted with the few friends who were with me at that time. After several minutes, one of the guys said we could go in already. When reached the entrance I saw my bunch of friends smiling happily saying they went into another Shabu-Shabu. (there are 2 shabu-shabu in puchong)
The most unexpected (the surprise) thing finally happened. As I walked into the Shabu-Shabu (3rd floor), I saw HIM sitting at the corner of the table.SHOCKED! TOTALLY UNEXPECTED! I got so emotional that my face flushed instantly. My friends teased me and asked me if I was surprised. DEFINITELY! What a surprise ,huh?! Now when think about it I will laugh at my silliness for being overreacted. Hahaha...uncontrollable...cant be helped... :-))) Thanks for being there dear though you will b having exam the next day. hahaha....
1st time ate Shabu-Shabu...quite enjoyed but would prefer if there are different soups...nice memories I had there though.

The second part of celebration continued with my arrival at Ipoh on the night of Oct8,2009. My grandfather (mum's side) and one of my aunts together with my beloved family celebrated my birthday at Citrus Wine and Dine. Had never been there before also.1st time again...Citrus's foods are quite nice and I love the ambience!!! Western foods are served there. Quite tasty. But, is pricey. Anyway, I pretty much enjoyed my grilled chicken and honey lemon juice. :-P Dad ordered a 3-way lamb set which was the most expensive dish among all of our dishes, but it tasted really good. Despite my dislike in lamb, I surprisingly found that lamb can actually be tasty! The only disadvantage about ordering this set is it doesn't really worth the money you paid for. The portion is too small! After eating, cutting cake session began. But the sad thing is...the cake was quite awful. I didnt blame anyone but just asked my mum not to buy Tiramisu from that cake shop anymore.

Received some nice gifts from cousin sister and brother. Sooner, gonna receive a big present from HIM.hahahaha....well, I would just like to say a big thank you to all who have celebrated with me, texted and called me as well as giving gifts to me. I am very grateful to all of you! Millions of thanks, everyone!

-violetwonders-

tick-tock-tick-tock

6hours left to study for my test...cudnt believe tat i hv the mood to blog now. (it is 2am in the morning now!) Lookin at the clock tick-tocking and knowin time flies I shud b doin hard revision now but thn the mood to blog jz sink in... I hv jz read a blog of my fren n somehow it gives me the spirit to blog. :D
It is good to refresh back old memories sometimes...refreshing about the events that had happened around me and in my life. I wud most probably share it out after the tests r over this week and whenever I hv the free time becoz I think it wud b worth it to recall all these memories (be it good or bad).

Personally I feel that I've changed in some aspects though I cant manage to kick out sum old habits. (every1 has their habits which are unchangeable rite? ) These changes can b credited to the ppl I hv met in my life. However, the old wenzhi still remains. Characters may change but I will definitely stay the same...haha. After all, I am the only one who can b myself, aint it true?
:-P

okayz think i will continue next time cz I m sure my daddy wud b fuming if he had read this blog..bcoz I m still bloggin when I shud b studyin now!
follow my next blog :)

O violetwonders O

spirit of blogging

It is 12:15am now..
Finally my mood to blog has come back... (boonheng: I knw u miss reading my blog..don nid to throw a fast conclusion saying my blog is a dead blog geh.. :P )

Cliche as it may sounds, I just don't really have the time to blog. As new semester has just started, many things need to be settled and now that week 4 is coming soon, I am expecting my schedule to be tighter :"(

Things did not go well though. Last week I was downright down and angry. For a few minutes I could not accept the shocking fact behind what had happened earlier. I really could not comprehend his action. For heaven sake, can't he just acts like a REAL man! This horrible idiot seemed to enjoy badmouthing people. The worst thing is he spoke not the truth but spread untrue information. What a wrongful action! Shame on him!
The more I think of it the angrier I am..I dont wish to write further about this incident since it had already passed. I am so glad to learn the fact that he is such a fiendish and fake person. I am not concerned at all if he receives his punishments from God in his afterlife. What is important is I have seen his true colours and for that reason I will do what I should when dealing with him. Betrayal of trust is a painful experience to bear with but I will not let it weaken me by any chance.

These few days I have been pretty busy searching food factories for my industrial training next year. When think of the life of working in industry, I get excited but at the same time worried. Worry for many reasons. Individual perfomance, expectancy,environment, dealing with different networks etc...Trying to prepare myself mentally and emotionally for this new challenge (still have about 4months)..But, kind of looking forward to it. This is life. DILEMMA!
Hmm...I hope I will get the place I want la...hmmm...pray for me ya frens? :) thxx...

I am very determined to improve my freestyle! So, I will try to increase my trip to the pool..hehe..

OK..till here. Update when free again ;)

crawling up after hitting hard on the ground

One of the saddest moments in my life is still vivid in my mind.Guess I fell too hard...

The power of the mind is no doubt the most powerful weapon to equip with if one intends to grasp victory and has a taste of success.If you realize,possessing a positive outlook in everything is so important.Once you let a negative thought sinks in, the game is over for you.You will be at the losing end.

Personally,I am a person who is easily distracted and influenced.Inexplicably,I tend to forget what is important in my life when I actually know what I want.
Not a very disciplined person? YESSSS...
I have to be constantly fueled. After having a 'great' taste of failure every now and then, I definitely have learned significant lessons.

THE WORDS
(Everyone has the right to speak.So if I were to care everything they say about me then I will be the BUSIEST person in the world)
THE IMPRESSION
(Who are they to judge me anyway???)
THE 'HURDLES'
(If I want to do something, no one can stop me. It is only a matter of whether I want it or not.)
MYSELF
(for not having strong principles in life)

Strangely enough, I had actually known the greatness of power of mind long before but I am not taking it seriously.

I am not a clairvoyant so I couldn't see what will happen in future.BUT,one thing for sure is I am so clear of what I want to achieve in the next 3 to 4 years.The journey will be tough but I will tough it out..
Determination is the key factor.And go for what I believe in!

Just now I was watching the 28th Grammy movie awards (Hong Kong).Guess what? The little girl who starred in CJ7 won the title of 'the best new female actress' (some sort like that). The pretty little girl with such a young age already managed to receive a remarkable trophy like this kind.Standing in front of all talented actors,actresses and directors, she proudly and emotionally said,
'Dad, finally I scored 100 marks this time!'
She indeed gain my respect.

Nothing is really impossible in this world, isn't it?
CHEERS!

MY PRIORITY

I am glad that I am knowing what is my utmost priority.
I don't know about others but for me, my priority is my parents.

Here is the contradiction. My future is supposed to be the top of my priority. True enough. Yet, I feel strongly that my parents are the utmost priority in my life. It is because of them that my future matters the most.Simple reason. Their only hope is to see me successful in the future and lead a good life. Well, I suppose that's the hope of all parents...

Over the past few weeks I have been feeling strongly over this top priority of mine. They weigh heavily in my heart. And they will always get the largest share of my heart. I feel so obliged to fulfill the duty as a daughter. (Of course I have always been a dutiful daughter.)
Reduced high tone. Trying not to talk back.(But as always I will stand for my points if they make sense. )
STUBBORN.

Seeing them happy and healthy is my wish. I want badly to give them a real good life now. (Not like they are not having one at the moment. Just want to upgrade it to a higher level). My only mission now is to strive towards ONE GOAL. I will make sure I achieve this goal. Their faith in me will always be the sole purpose for me to keep in tracks of what I should do to materialize their wish . I shall not stray from my goal.

Out you go, DISTRACTIONS!
Out you go, TEMPTATIONS!

My conscience has been telling me to love and treasure my family as much as I can.
YES, DEFINITELY I WILL !
SWEAR I WON'T HURT THEM AT ANY CHANCE !

Family is THE BEST !
P/S: Mum 'N Dad, I hope I won't disappoint both of you!

watch this

I AM SO OBSESSED WITH HIM!

I've just watched the new moon trailer..dunno how many times have I repeated the trailer but still seems like not getting enough of it. The images of Edward Cullen and Bella Swan keeps on lingering in my mind. To make things worse,I keep on thinking about the handsome-looking JACOB !!!
JACOB is so HOT!!!
Make me crave for HIM so much compared to Edward...But,i like Edward also.
Anticipating for NEW MOON so much!Looking forward to NOVEMBER 2009!!

Below is the trailer.Enjoy it.You will know who is Jacob after watching it...